Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Walking In Water

Matthew 3: 13-17
Then Jesus came from Galilee to John at the Jordan, to be baptized by him. John would have prevented him, saying, ‘I need to be baptized by you, and do you come to me?’ But Jesus answered him, ‘Let it be so now; for it is proper for us in this way to fulfill all righteousness.’ Then he consented. And when Jesus had been baptized, just as he came up from the water, suddenly the heavens were opened to him and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and alighting on him. And a voice from heaven said, ‘This is my Son, the Beloved, with whom I am well pleased.’

In the last few reflections we have been looking beyond the ‘Christmas card’ presentation of the whole Christmas story to see starkness of a kind that is often forgotten in the midst of Christmas celebrations. The mystical events of the Nativity, the Epiphany, the Holy Family fleeing to Egypt and now Jesus at his adult baptism could in no way be construed at the time as magical. Nothing was clean, sparkly or pretty. It all took place in the muck of harsh reality and those involved in these mysteries had to pay deep attention in order to discover and have faith in the stirrings of the Spirit in it all.

As I noted in the Epiphany reflection, the Christmas story is, in fact, the story of our lives where the journey is often hard, dry and rocky, where life is rarely simple and clean. We have moments of enunciation and magnification where we experience beautiful grace to say yes to God’s desires and where our hearts overflow with praise for his abundant life. And then we have times where the will of God leads us into journeys of hardship and spiritual poverty. We are confronted by circumstances that utterly confound us. We may experience joyful rebirth and a sense of having arrived and then just as suddenly we may feel like we have no home and grieve for what’s been left behind and for what we feel we never had. 

I am emphasizing once again that it is within the very fabric of our uneven, static, difficult and chaotic lives that Mystery appears and grows.  We cannot wait until things are ‘picture perfect’ before we begin to watch for the manifestation of God. He comes in the midst of the mess but he often comes 'small'. Often his coming can create what seem to be complications but are really complex and intricate patterns of beauty being woven into our fabric of our own stories. In retrospect we can see those patterns of light in the Christmas story but it certainly wasn’t easy to see them at the time.

The baptism of Jesus is yet another lovely vignette in our storehouse of perfect theological images. It seems so far removed from the Christmas story because now our little Savior is all grown up but it’s definitely all tied together. Subtle mystery upon subtle mystery. Jesus participated in a ritual cleansing he didn’t need and he did so because as a mewling infant lying in a pile of straw, crying and pooping like any other baby, he was not just immaculately inserted into this crazy world but was immersed in the mucky depths of it in order to redeem life as it really is, not to present us with an unattainable ideal. Our mangers, the roads we travel in terror, our senses of being homeless and foreign to this world and our ever present grief that something has been lost but we don’t know what, have all been transformed by Jesus into rich soil for the growth of his presence and mystery in our lives. He blessed the mess by becoming completely one with it all. He is one with our births and rebirths, our rising stars, our struggles to grow, mature and understand, our plunges into the waters of rebirth and, finally, our deaths. Mystery flourishes in the midst of mess. Yes, in the midst of your mess. Your mess is holy ground and it is there you will find him. It is there that you are plunged again and again into the waters of rebirth.

We have our sacramental Baptism and then throughout our lives we ‘re-member’ or relive that baptism every time we make a turn around in our lives and recommit ourselves to be who God has called each of us to be. Every time we intentionally bless ourselves with holy water and every time we intentionally repeat our Baptismal promises we are reminding ourselves of our true identity. In his baptism, one of the things that Jesus showed us about our own daily baptisms is what to listen for after rising out of those waters of ‘re-membering’ and regeneration. As he rose up, suddenly the heavens were opened to him and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and alighting on him. And a voice from heaven said, ‘This is my Son, the Beloved, with whom I am well pleased.’

When you come to God for inner cleansing, to tell him you are his and that your desire is to be open to the fulfillment of his will in your life, what you should be listening for are the same words that Jesus heard. “This is my son. This is my daughter, the Beloved in whom I am well pleased.” You must listen for those words because in Baptism you are clothed in Christ. It is he that you have put on. God looks at you and sees the glory and beauty of his Beloved son.

Can you believe that God looks upon you with such joy? Can you believe that God eternally treasures you? The understanding that you fall and fail brings you back to your waters of baptism, to repentance and regeneration but it’s not this repentance that causes God to speak words of love over you. It is repentance that gives your eyes the ability to look up and your ears the capacity to hear the words he is always speaking over you. If you don’t give yourself permission to listen, your eyes will remain focused on your limited false self rather than being opened to the awesome mystery of how Jesus pushed aside the walls of all our limitations and opened the way for us to assume our rightful places as priests, prophets, sovereign rulers and dignified daughters and sons of the living God.

This reflection continues next week but until then, why don’t you enter into a long-term Lectio Divina. Take the following words from this week’s first reading to your daily prayer time and listen to them, meditate upon them and contemplate them as words being spoken about you:

Thus says the Lord:
Here is my servant whom I uphold,
My chosen, in whom my soul delights;
I have put my spirit upon him (her).
                                                         (Isaiah 42:1)

May the Word of the Lord lead you to amazement and profound joy.

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